Okay, So I Have NO Idea Where I am Going with This Post.. But Believe Me, I NEED To release My Frustrations and Well, Writing Kinda Helps.
So, Many Might think, "You are just a Teenager and All these Problems are Nothing and When you Grow Up you will have to do this.. Do that.." But I guess, If You Look at these "Problems" From our Point of View, You would Understand.. Yes, I Do Agree that We are Still growing Up and there is a Lot More to Life than What we experience Now.. But Cmon..! Problems are Problems..! Anyways, Now the "Problem" Is that (I Will try and write this as less silly as possible) Exams are Coming up this Week.. And Yes we Did have time, We did Have Practice, But HEY..! Before you Judge Me, Let Me tell you, There are a LOT Of Distractions, Literally. And I am In 10th Grade, Which according to Many People is, I Dont Know.. "Crucial stage of your Life" Or Something. Now, the Main Problem is, The Pressure all of us Are Undergoing. I Might sound Like a Whiny teenage Brat.. But it Sucks. You do A Trigonometry Problem.. Next Day, you Try Doing the Same thing ..POOF.. ERROR IN LOADING MEMORY..!! Theorems and Formulas Haunt you in Your Sleep.. I am a Type of Person who can sleep under the Most Harsh Circumstances..(Screaming of My Brothers) Nowadays, I Wake up at 3.00 in The Morning.. Its Like my Mind is Programmed to Do it. You Know, When you Run on a Treadmill.. It Seems Like you are Running a Lot.. Infact, you Sweat too.. But in the End, You are in the Same Place where you Began. Maths is Somewhat Like that. The Worst thing..? You cant Blame Anyone else But you..! You can Scream all You want at your Siblings to Let out your Frustrations.. But in The end, What..? You are Just Left with a Weird emotion which is a Cross Between Guilt, Regret and Helplessness. You Know those Moments.. When you Know you have this Big Barrier in front of you.. And One Moment you go all "Okay, I will Do it, I can Do it" Then after a While "Ah, Who Cares"..?
Well, the Problem with Exams is that.. You Dont have That "Who Cares" Option..!
Considering the..Weir things I Have Written above , I Hope You can Understand How Much Math has Affected my Mental Health..
Well, thats It for Today
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